Below are the 17 most recent journal entries recorded in Adam J. Tragedy's LiveJournal:

Friday, January 13th, 2006
3:05 am	Fuck you forever. I'll fucking hate you for the rest of my life. (Comment on this)
Friday, January 6th, 2006
4:42 am	Happy fucking New Year. So here is my first post of the new year, 200666. I didn't enjoy my 2005 too much, i mean, there were SOME good aspects, but generally it was piss poor. Although it did see the birth of DyingDAYS and then GhostFace. (Busted Kyle). I've pretty much sorted out my priorities. And that would be buying more black clothes and looking out for numero uno. Yes, this is shallow, but im pretty much done with wasting valuable time on people who couldn't care wether im alive or dead, so yeah.There we have it. Now im just siked on GhostFace because, lets face it, we have the "emovers" for the job. ha ha ha. Shame mate. My heart was pretty much existing for one person only and they gave it away.Along time ago it may seem. But im done with all that shit. I mean, i can find a nice girl who has her own, real eyebrows right? Ofcorpse i can. So gutted, get fucked and i hope our paths never cross again.Unless it's at your funeral. I would also like to take this opportunity to highly recommend HAIL HORROR by HIMSA. It's the new album and i think its worth a purchase. I hope everyone is having an enjoyable New Year and makes the most of it. You don't get time back, make sure you don't waste it on anybody far less special than you are. I found that out the hard way. Your very own, Adam Tragedy.x. Current Music: Bleeding Through. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 17th, 2005
10:16 am	Today i am happy because... my heart has died. My very own, Adam Tragedy.x. Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Monday, November 14th, 2005
3:11 pm	I laughed in the mirror, for the first time in a year. This past week has been quite eventful. Lets run through, quit DYINGDAYS, made a new band, promoted to new department at work, charmaine was a complete dickhead at Met, apparently ive been fucking Penny, realised sharpy isnt worth my time anymore,also realised that most of the people i know are cocks. And the funny thing is, i dont care too much either? Aslong as i keep sleeping and pumping my body full of sweet drugs, i dont care. Read these lyrics, they sum me up quite well right now. I have slipped and I have fallen, so far down I can't get out. Overwhelmed by my doubt. Things I said i'd never do i've done. Those I said i'd never be i've become. I have broken - i'm still breaking - cracked and wrecked, beyond repair. I can see that no one cares. Forgotten. Recalled. Smacks me in the face every time I fall. I cannot disregard, with each new fall I hit twice as hard. Would you be there for me? I would. I would be there for you. I would. Would you look up to see? I would. Falling forward and looking up. To all the people i have wasted my valuable time on, get fucked. Especially the people i loved. Go to hell, Adam Tragedy.x. Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
8:59 pm	The all new deathless one. My god. So i haven't written on here for quite some time. So much has happened over the past couple of months that it really is quite absurd. Alot of people have moved away. I've discontinued some friendships, made some new ones with people i REALLY didn't imagine i ever could, have a really wonderful tattoo and an awesome band. My special fIEnd i mention alot has gone again, taking a part of me with them.Again. So that means im always a little bit sad, but i have discovered that getting drunk to the point of memory loss helps me. My band is called DyingDays. We're pretty good. Im STILL employed, which is quite amazing. Im no closer to getting my car back, as i have wasted every single pay i've gotten on random bollocks. Im going to see one of my favourite bands in December. My OWN band have a show in december...shit...i forgot about that... Then another of my faves in February. Getting more tattoos in 3 weeks... my my my im actually quite busy. Im spending christmas alone again this year. My father is going to spain so i shall be alone a few days before christmas day untill a few days before new years eve. If anyone else gets lonely then feel free to come and say hi and pull a cracker with me or something. Plus, you can buy a black christmas tree from John Lewis! Not long now untill my favourite time of the year!! So many pumpkins i shall carve. Anyway, im tired. I shall return to this awful place on day. Maybe even soon. Fare Thee Well. A lonely, Adam Tragedy.x. Current Mood: lonely (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 10th, 2005
5:01 am	I don't care. Pursuit of happiness is like a twinkie hanging from a string, hanging from a plunger, stuck to your head. Please god kill me now. D-E-A-D. Thats how i wanna be. (Comment on this)
Friday, June 17th, 2005
6:27 am	It's SO hot! Jesus titty-fucking christ i am SO hot today. Oh how i wish it was sunday when im supposed to see my special fIEnd but i don't know if that's happening now. I think we fell out or something. Well, i'll let anyone interested know how it goes on sunday.Hmm. Today a man came up to me whilst i was in Costa having a cigarette and i thought he was going to beat me up so i clutched onto my lunchbox tightly but he jkust wanted to compliment my lunchbox and hair! I was so happy i kept saying thank you and that i liked his hair too but secretly i didn't.It was short and had a little sticky up spiky bit. I have to go back to work now...It's later than i thought it was. A complimented, Adam Tragedy.x. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: God Called In (Sic) Today..... (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 15th, 2005
9:13 am	I am at work.... And i'd rather be at home. But home is nowhere. BOOOOOOOOORED. A Very Bored, Adam Tragedy.x. Current Mood: bored (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 9th, 2005
10:48 am	In two and a half months i'm getting my transfer to another store and i can't wait.I'm leaving all the fucks behind and probably most of me.I hate you all, except the ones i love, and im never coming back.Im going to be a ghost in this fucking town. The rotting corpse of, Adam Tragedy.x. Current Music: theCURE - Homesick. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
9:50 am	I am in love with Angel.And it hurts big time. Somebody give me some 'unrequited love' sympathy? A very lonely, Adam Tragedy.x. Current Mood: distressed Current Music: Is ripping me apart. (Comment on this)
Friday, June 3rd, 2005
9:41 am	Fuck You Forever. Well i've just finished work and i'll update you if you like? Pretty much all my other entries have been so stereotypical goff and just full of 'look at me!' so here's a jolly one. Work went by quite fast today and i've discovered how to get away with having a cigarette every hour.That made me smile. Someone good has told me things i've waited so long to hear and i have a little smile. I've mostly been listening to Disintegration today which got me down but i had Bleeding Through and HIMSA with me to give me a good old frown again and other aggressive thoughts. I simply cannot wait to move away and leave all the pricks i know behind and start all over.And incase you're a good fIEnd reading this, i love you and i'll stay in touch forever.Or atleast untill i commit suicide. Farewell for now. A Happier, Adam Tragedy.x. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: theCURE - Disintegration (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 30th, 2005
10:49 pm	New stuff you fucks. Well i've had loads of money recently to waste.And i have. I bought some new dvds. 1.Batman. 2.Batman Returns. 3.Sleepy Hollow. 4.From Hell. Notice the connection. Only a few more to get now. I also bought theCURE-disintegration. And whoever says that it's their best album is horribly mistaken. Pornography beats it by far. I have suddenly become woozy and faint and am finding it hard to read what i am writing.hmmmm (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 12th, 2005
1:44 am	Run rabbit, run. So things are going to get all better again? How much longer do i have to wait? It feels like i've already spent a lifetime of unrequitedness. All i can do is keep on waiting i guess.That and hoping. How melo-fucking-dramatic does THAT sound? Razorblade Kisses, Adam J. Tragedy.x. Current Mood: sick (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
1:14 am	I take drugs and you should too. Weeeeeell. Yet another night of self loathing and cliche goth hatred.I really do wonder whats going on in my life. I have a new job and lots of new stuff is happening but i really can't be bothered with all these lies and hiding of secrets. Im moving away and im leaving everyone behind.Im going to be a ghost in this lame ass town and in everyones memory. for you:- love. Razorblade Kisses, Adam J. Tragedy.x. Current Mood: Rotting. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
11:39 am	She glows & grows, with arms outstretched, her legs around me, in the morning i cried. Oh my god.Again, again and again i have so much to write on this fucking site but i still can't? What's going on with me? Something that should've been so special to me this mourning, but after excessive drinking i can't remember a single part of it at all.It's actually killing me inside. Somehow i have noticed a change in myself and i can't decide if i like it or not. Someone very close to me visited yesterday, completely out of the blue. I finished work and left to go to ASDA and they were behind me.I couldn't believe it at all.It felt like a wash of colour going through me like air.I went out for a few drinks and then visited my very good fIEnd at his house and continued to drink. Alot,and no exaggeration there, of problems have arisen.I fear everything may come crashing down around me all over again. I really thought i was over this feeeling of expiration.Honestly. Im listening to theCURE-The Figurehead right now and although it doesnt directly relate to me, my face has gone red and stings from my tears.How pathetic. My solution is about 300 footsteps away from me right fucking now and all i want to do is sit with it.Not speak to it, no conversation whatsoever, but simply hold it. Fuck this, what AM i speaking about?? Tonight's the night, it's do or die. And i mean that literally. A hand in my mouth. A life spills into the flowers. We all look so perfect. As we all fall down. In an electric glare. The old man cracks with age. She found his last picture. In the ashes of the fire. An image of the queen. Echoes round the sweating bed. Sour yellow sounds inside my head. In books. And films. And in life. And in heaven. The sound of slaughter. As your body turns. But it's too late. One more day like today and i'll kill you. A desire for flesh. And real blood. I'll watch you drown in the shower. Pushing my life through your open eyes. I must fight this sickness. Find a cure. Current Mood: Dead. Current Music: theCURE - siamese twins. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 8th, 2005
7:19 pm	Someone saved my life lastnight... Well well well. What an adventure last night was hey? Slimelight was brilliantly good fun and made me the happiest i have been in a long time. I think a few of my fIEnds didn't enjoy it as much as i, but they (or atleast one of them) were wise enough not to pollute their body with naughty naughty substances. One of my fIEnds nearly fell off a table from falling asleep! A few things have changed and i now have what i've always wanted! A downside to last night was infact that i hurled almost 10 times! I think i needed some of the stuff i threw up :( Ah well, im very tired now and have my first day of work tomoro so i simply must go and dissolve in my bed. I have so, so, so much more to write but we shall simply have to wait and see if i choose to tell all of my readers as it's a real big wonderful surprise. Razorblade Kisses, Adam J. Tragedy. x Current Mood: nervous Current Music: Lerock - Vitallic (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
8:47 pm	I like to start somwhere near the beginning.... Wow. So i've found yet another website to waste my life on.Oh how i hate the internet. Im not too sure where to begin really... It's my birthday on friday, so im all girly excited about that. Im going to spend some time with my fIEnds and probably take more drugs than my fragile little body can take. And then there's the meeting up of my special special fIEnd.Heeee.I simply cannot wait, although i simply do not want to go at the same time.It's so very strange. I keep thinking that these smiles are false and may simply fade away as they did almost 2 years ago. But if you don't try, then you'll never know right? I have written my special special fIEnd a letter in a last attempt as words don't leave my mouth properly.I also bought a wonderful gift for my fIEnd to hold. Maybe im trying too hard again? Oh no! So worried all over again. I feel i have already written too much rubbish on this, my first day, so i shall leave and go now to drink a smile onto my face.I shall update soon with the details of how my attempts go and how my body-abuse goes, as im sure you're simply DYING to know. Failure is inevitable. Razorblade kisses, Adam J. Tragedy. Current Mood: jealous Current Music: is so pretty. (2 Comments |Comment on this)